Throughout my life, my mom always encouraged me to think positively. I resisted her advice because I didn’t want her to be proven right. She’s always been optimistic, while I’ve leaned towards pessimism. The thought of her saying, “I told you so” was enough to make me avoid trying it altogether.
I’m trying to choose happiness and think positive today. Although it brings a sense of peace and tranquility mentally, it feels unnatural. I’ve always considered myself an unhappy person—lonely, unattractive, still living at home. Every day, I find myself wishing for an end. So why should I choose to think something that doesn’t reflect my true feelings? Is it beneficial in the long-term? Am I stupid for not doing it sooner because I wanted to be right?